My summer was a rollercoaster. My mind was in so many different places, confused & conflicted. My heart was as well. The second half of my freshman year at SCAD was tough, to say the least. I fell into this hole of unhappiness, isolation, anger, depression, anti socialness, & a feeling of being lost. I needed a change. I needed something different. I needed to get out of my comfort zone and rediscover myself. Who I was at the end of freshman year was not who I wanted to be, nor was it who I knew I truly was. So, I decided to drop out of SCAD. Nothing against the school- it's the most incredible place and I truly believe any artist who attends with determination and work ethic will reach the stars. However, I didn't feel completely myself when I was there. I didn't feel like I was surrounded by the people, things, and environment that I really need to thrive. I'm not going to blame my anti-socialness on SCAD, lol; but it didn't exactly provide a lot of ways to be actively social and engaging with my peers and that was something I knew I didn't want to sacrifice. I may love my alone time and doing things by myself, but I am a social person at heart. I wasn't that at SCAD.
After going back and forth between 4 other schools and changing my mind like a crazy person about a lot of different things in my life, 3 months later I find myself at the University of Colorado in Boulder. You might be thinking, what the fluff is there for you? And if I'm going to be honest, I'm not 100% sure yet. But what I am sure of is that when I came to visit, I saw opportunity. I saw hope and potential and realized this is a place that I really feel I can thrive at. It doesn't have to make sense to you, but Colorado made sense to me. And after being here for a week, hanging out with my lovely roommates, meeting new people, hiking up mountains, driving up winding roads that lead to breathtaking lookouts, and being surrounded by a community I feel connected to, I can already tell I'm going to be so happy here.
But enough talking!! My roomies and I took a drive up to Lost Gulch Lookout the other day, so let me, instead, SHOW you the beauty of Boulder.
Until my next adventure, friends.